Thursday, June 27, 2013

I fear for my career

And this rhymes!
Oh the joy.

It's no news to anyone that careers are hard! Aside from this common knowledge I think everyone experiences the hardships of a career differently. One might have a choleric boss or mean colleagues or just a shit job. Though I'm guessing a real shit job means no career at all...

In my case the actual hardship is building up myself. I just finished my degree a year ago and I need aaaallll~ the input my job can give me. One day I hope to lose this gnawing feeling that I know nothing and absolutely nothing. Shit feeling, that. Makes applying for jobs extremely complicated.

Interviewer: "So, what wonderful knowledge do you have that makes you profitable for this company?"
Me: "Nothing. I know nothing."
        Awkward pause.
Me: "But I wanna learn! No, really! I'm really motivated!"
        Even more awkward pause.
Me: "Well, I got a degree..."

You see?! Shit feeling, that.

So I chose my jobs so far over their potential of teaching me great things. In my current job I was to learn how to calculate a whole project. Of course this didn't start on the first day. I had to learn more basic stuff first and fit myself into the company. I was not fussed about this at all. But after 6 months I was fussed. Heh.
Turns out the guy responsible for all the calculating here sucks donkey balls and I'd do best not learning anything from him. (How did this company survive, you ask yourself! Well, it sure didn't strive.) But my boss told me they were about to employ a fabulous guy with lotsa experience, who then would teach me. Learn from the masters and all. Yeah! Yeah. Sure.

Turns out the new guy is waaaayyy too great to teach anyone anything. Also it seems they didn't tell him about me not being his secretary and gimme-a-copy-of-that-gal. I began fearing for my career. If I keep on doing this here, I'll never climb up any ladder, anywhere.

So I went for an awkward interview. Again.
And almost cried on the way out. Man, what a bad interview! Totally did not go well.

They called yesterday. I got the job.

Life is full of wonders.

Wednesday, June 05, 2013

Spring, autumn, then what?

So spring seemed to finally have sprung, but that was only for a few days. To fool us humans. I even had taken my bike out the basement thinking I'd be all sportive and go to work by bike. I did that all for two days in a row, because what followed was autumn. Or the rainy season, as Akane calls it. Which is just about the same, I think.

God, it started gushing down. And getting cold. Dark, cold, rainy. Autumn. I even got the autumnal cold everyone is required to get. Everyone gets this, right? Right?

Anyway. It rained and rained and stormed. Quite great actually as long as you don't have to be out there. Or if you're properly dressed and can enjoy it. Which I did the other day. I got my gumboots and umbrella and headed for the river just down the street.
That's how it looked. Bombsite really. Muddy mess. Great fun with gumboots!

The river was quite high already, so I tried to make a picture of that.
Okay. So much for my picture-taking-skills. But let me assure you. There was just one centimeter left until flooding the freshly laid stone-riverbank.
Was highly entertaining. Also had those gumboots for a good few months now and finally had found a moment to use them. Makes for a pretty happy me.
But this is what was the next day.

Woah! This is where I walked, people. Just the day before. Crazy.
And the river went even higher.

Okay. It's not only my bad skills, but also my camera is shite.  But you get the idea. My. Goodness.
The last time it was that bad was 6 years ago.  I was on crutches at the time and guess what? It was autumn.

Rainy season indeed.

The water is now receding, leaving even more of a muddy mess behind. Wonder how long it'll take for grass to grow... Hopefully not too long. I want my riverbank back! 

So we had a few days spring, about two weeks or so autumn and now it all looks like summer? I don't trust it.